By & By
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You never miss some one more than when they are gone …
I miss your warmth and comfort right now.
I woke up and thought your Care Bear was you …
I didn’t feel a kiss this morning before you left.
I wait until 4:30P …
Insomnia Talking
Gears of War 2 is laced with crack.
Another restless night. This will lead to a prolonged day. Those are the worst kind of days. They tend to be unproductive.
I find it difficult to contribute to society when you have not identified your purpose yet. Sounds like I’m casting a long shadow over myself, but that is not my intention. I, for one of the few moments in my life, am quite optimistic in regards to what my future holds. What I will manifest into … eventually. Worried? Yes. But I do have hope. Honestly, when it comes to thinking positive, I am a failure. Not this time. Wonder why? I will not close the door on my potential, as long as a glimmer of light shines through.
These past few years have taken it’s toll on me. You see … ? Right on cue, back to being the pessimist. It suits me well. But these past few years have been harsh. It has taken me to the back of a dark alley and beat me into submission. I feel I have aged tremendously, but have gained a minuscule amount of wisdom.
I am no different than how I was five years ago. The definition of insanity, is to repeat something over and over again, expecting different results. That is the definition of Byron too.
I think this will change. Soon … Now.
Success is something I want. Something I actually desire now. I usually accomplish any goal I set for myself. I just need to discover the passion for it. There is a spark. I need a fire. But this is a start.
Gears of War 2 is still laced with crack.
Be My Pupil
Please help a “Brute” out, and click on my links …
(It’s to the right of this column)
Brutality
Ace introduced me to www.mybrute.com a little while ago, I have to say … I’m addicted to it. I compare the feeling of watching your brute develop and level up to parenting … wait, never mind. That’s not the correct metaphor. I wouldn’t be able to relate to that at all. I’ll think of a better one later.
With that said, there is no worse feeling in the world, than when your brute refuses to take out his mallet, but your opponents brute has no problem with taking out his/hers …
You can’t help but get a little annoyed.
Oh, and I now want a bear.
Fashion Sense
Is it me or is the “Hype-Beast” movement officially dead? I guess where I’m from, everyone looks like they’ve just stepped out of a taping of America’s Best Dance Crew, and went straight to the clubs.
When it comes to how fashion is developed, this past decade should be considered the “Puff Daddy” era. Do you see the similarities? We take hits from the 80’s and add a little new twist to it. Then we plaster our name all over it IN BIG LETTERS and for the finishing touch … we throw a gun in the mix.
It’s 2009 people! Why aren’t we wearing astronaut suits yet? We should be getting all “futuristic” on that ass already.
Someone make this popular now so I can jump on the band-wagon, then complain about it when the shit hits the fan!
(In my 80’s gear of course)
Hello
Well I’m completely new to this “blogging” thing, but I figured I would give it a try.
I asked my girl what I should write about in my blogs, and she suggested to jot down whatever’s on my mind, or how I feel about certain things.
Since my mind is a deep void of emptiness at the moment, I might as well take this opportunity to tell you about myself.
My name is Byron DeGuzman, hence the title “By & By.” The pun is intended. 26 years ago I was born in San Francisco, California, and I have been raised in the Bay Area for most of my life. I am Filipino-American, but everyone’s first impression of me, is that I am Chinese.
The main reason I am attempting to blog, is to try and explore my creative side. I guess you can say that I am some-what in a pre-mature mid-life crisis, and I feel that I have wasted a lot of potential. I know the security of a job is all I should be concerned about, but for some strange reason, I could care less. I am not a 9-5′er and I never will be. I want to be able to contribute to people’s lives in some way, shape or form, the question is, “How?”
Look, I am a decent artist, and a pretty good writer, so I am basically using “wordpress” as an outlet to see what I am capable of. Perhaps if I’m lucky, this may lead to something, but in reality, it’s up to you to be the judge. Worse case scenario, I get to share a bit of my personality with a bunch of strangers.
I guess my mind wasn’t quite as empty as I thought.
